Afternoons.

Agos

Nadala ka ba ng agos

Kung san mo gusto pumunta

O sinabay ka lang ng alon

Wala ka ng nagawa.

Nadala ka ba ng agos

Sa lugar na masaya

O nabulag ka lang ng alon

Masaya ba talaga?

Nadala ka ba ng agos 

Sa buhay na iyong inaasam

O nalunod ka lang sa ilusyong

Ito nga ang iyong inasam. 

Nadala ka ba ng agos

Hanggang kailan ka nya dadalin

Kailan ka lalaban sa alon

Sabihin mo ngayon sa salamin. 

QOTD

Well I'd like to slap my problems in the face, is that a problem Captain Jack? :)

The F happened.

The last thing I knew was I was about to finish my internship and have a great life ahead. Which now was just one fcked up cliche. Yeahh sad as it is, but it does happen folks. Expectations. That's the key factor in this problem. People always expect color infused rainbows in every storms' ending. But in real talk, not all are blessed to see a rainbow in their life, some just a glimpse, and some of us, unfortunately are just given only grey clouds.

Rainbow after the rain? Not always.

Past forward 8 months, I'm sitting here writing this blog, which to me seems like a lonely desperate move. Well I have a very decent and great boyfriend, a good set of friends, a supportive family, beers and all the cigarettes I can smoke to match. The only catch is, I still don't have a job. STILL. At first it's fine, I don't mind it at all, I'm actually enjoying it to be honest. No painfully irritating  morning alarms, no traffic, no rush hour, no meetings, no deadlines, no psychopathic boss. In short, life was a pure sugar- coated piece of heaven.

But as time went on, my self - esteem is knocking at the door. People around me are all moving on and I find myself stuck in a place where I wanted to be at the first place. My friends are slowly disappearing in sight. Work became a popular word. And life for me was slowly beginning to become uncomfortably quiet. I was trying and still trying now with all my guts spilling in every single job interview I have ever had. I know myself and I know that I'm not messing up, but there's still one question that's still hanging in my mind up to now, why the f*ck am I still lonely and unemployed like this?

Maybe there's something wrong with me. Or with the world I'm living in. Maybe there's nothing wrong. Maybe it's just that life is too unfair for some. Maybe she likes to play. Maybe she plays hard. That maybe, is something that I will have to figure out for myself. Ciao.

Addicted to the fast life.

Well it's been months since I dropped by this page, long alcohol- filled months. It's past two in the morning and as expected, I'm writing this whatever thoughts you'd like to call it. Summer's long gone, it's been nearly two long months since school started, and yeah, I'm really a tourism student now.
Well I'm kinda' gettin' used already, or so I think, I still have those what-the-hell-am-I-doin'- here moments though. But still, I'm doin' good.
Last two months of summer were fun, crazy, random and the most unforgettable I think. I kind of reunited with old friends, and made them known to my new buddies. We had fun drinkin' every week, not almost, but EVERY single goddam week. We went out, partied like shit, and went to places so randomly unexpected that we did it almost every time.
We made it a point not to miss out and call such really insulting names to those who do. We've kept in touch and made our weekly reunion a routine. The only fun routine I've known my whole life.
Obviously, I'm here because we missed out on this saturday. Our first failed supposed-to-be reunion, again. Everybody's been busy on having their own issues that nobody came up today. But it's okay though, everyone needs a break sometime, and maybe this is ours. But after this, another season will start, lol. It's nice keeping in touch, it's like a weekly reward from this tiring , not to mention boring, redundant life. That's what others don't see, I still believe in that "All work and no play.." thing.
Even though life's drivin' you crazy from the weeks workload, give yourself the break you deserve, which for me comes weekly. Don't stress. Life's too short to fuss. XD

Dear diary..- SHIT.

I was wonderin' lately if I've been losing my mind. After two years of sulking into the medical field,I ended up shifting into Tourism. After all the sleepless nights trying to stay awake, trying to make myself believe I was really studying, I've given up. All the dealin-with-the-shitload-of-fuckn-work days, It's finally over.

I don't know If I should be happy or If I should be drinking myself to death for wasting 2 years of my life. I felt happy for finally listening to my so irritated conscience, but at the same way sad for leaving everything behind. Right now everything is just a shadow of the past. It's just something that I would remember and would not have to deal with anymore.

It's funny cause, for the past two years I made myself believe that I'm destined to be this nurse that my delusional folks wanted me to be. So I guess It's not news to me that they're quite disappointed not to mention furious,of my offbeat decisions. But this is me, I reflect everyone else, I'm not perfect.

But at the same time, deep inside of my very thoughts, I don't regret this at all. In fact I feel a sense of pride for my guts to venture out on my own. This is finally what I wanted and not others fantasy, I saved myself from that crazy shit.
And right now , I can truly say I'm happy and can drink more.bhaha

The Bounty Hunter

Well, just recently ,I watched the film The Bounty Hunter, starring Jennifer Aniston and Gerard Butler,it was definitely a chick flick but I'm sure guys would also be able to relate to this action-comedy-love story sort of stuff.



Well this story is about a bounty hunter [Gerard Butler] who finds out that his next job will be to catch his ex-wife,[Jennifer Aniston] whose a reporter working on a murder cover-up. Soon after their reunion, they find themselves into a run-for-their lives adventure that will soon relive the past emotions and unsaid woes, which will lead them back together for good.





All in all it was a good movie, for those who love comedy love-story this one is a sure hit. Don't expect too much cheesy scenes, since these two are always at odds with each other, expect more running, shouting and hand-cuffs. haha.

"Life is about making mistakes and death is wishing you had made more"

Watch it here.XD

The Stink in Summer

Ok so finally,we had our much long awaited " Super Awteng" haha. We went through just before the Holy week started. Unfortunately I didn't think we picked out the best private resort there is. We ended up at Champion Hot spring Resort at Pansol Laguna (I don't think the name suits itself afterwards ;]), since the holidays are just few nights away, it's really hard finding anything cheap and worth your money.
This one has 3 rooms with 3 beds each, there's also a videoke and a billiards table.






At first, we thought we striked out a great deal since most resorts offer their pools for 14-15k for a 24hrs stay, and like most of us out there, we're kind of running low on budget, so we just couldn't be happier when the caretaker offered this resort for only 12k for one whole day. We chose the 7pm-7pm sked.

So then, we arrived nearly at eight in the evening, thanks to the usual rush hour traffic jam, so it was great the place was cleaned up and poshed up for our stay, with only one exception, one of the room's aircon was jammed. And the weather is not helping. And with my amazing luck, we, my 9 friends and I ended up staying there.
So just not to ruin our night we just got dressed and went straight to the pool and tried to still enjoy ourselves.




We swam and drank like a fish all night long, though the pool area is quite dark, since the lights are only coming from the dining hall.The videoke's working great, finally one thing that's right that evening. One of my friends and I decided to stay up till next morning, since our room was so crammed up, and it's hot as hell anyway.
We ended up playing billiards, or what seemed like our own version of the game.haha







We waited for the caretaker to change the pool water or let it overflow a little, so the pool wouldn't smell like shit, that's what the others did when my family went to outings there at pansol too. But unfortunately, kuya didn't come. And then the others woke up and were looking forward to a summer morning swim, not knowing that they'll be about to dip into a something more like a stagnant pond.
So left with no choice, we still ended up swimming, for the sake of the blazing sun, we had to. I wouldn't lie, the water stinked big time. We were approximately thirty people tryin to fit in in the not-so-big-and-stinky pool.

And to make matters worse, kuya showed up late in the afternoon only to tell us that we had to leave the place at about 5pm, 2 hours early than the said time which was seven. They have to clean up daw for the next occupants, I dont think anyone else made a mistake of choosing this place, it was frankly the oldest resort there in the subdivision.

So despite the long and boring argument with kuya we were still forced to pack up early, we just ended up cam-whoring out on the streets. And for some reason we felt the urge to leave the place as messy as hell haha.


So then I just proved to myself that sometimes, or most of the time, you really have to pay up for great service.