I was wonderin' lately if I've been losing my mind. After two years of sulking into the medical field,I ended up shifting into Tourism. After all the sleepless nights trying to stay awake, trying to make myself believe I was really studying, I've given up. All the dealin-with-the-shitload-of-fuckn-work days, It's finally over.
I don't know If I should be happy or If I should be drinking myself to death for wasting 2 years of my life. I felt happy for finally listening to my so irritated conscience, but at the same way sad for leaving everything behind. Right now everything is just a shadow of the past. It's just something that I would remember and would not have to deal with anymore.
It's funny cause, for the past two years I made myself believe that I'm destined to be this nurse that my delusional folks wanted me to be. So I guess It's not news to me that they're quite disappointed not to mention furious,of my offbeat decisions. But this is me, I reflect everyone else, I'm not perfect.
But at the same time, deep inside of my very thoughts, I don't regret this at all. In fact I feel a sense of pride for my guts to venture out on my own. This is finally what I wanted and not others fantasy, I saved myself from that crazy shit.
And right now , I can truly say I'm happy and can drink more.bhaha
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